This week I’m going deeper into the theme of Let Love In. I offer my own process of self inquiry as a guide for you to follow, adjust and build upon. If you uncover a new insight, please pass it my way. Self-discovery is powerful. We all have something valuable to offer. Enjoy!

Withholding love is a form of self-flagellation. I’ve uncovered an unconscious tendency that occasionally when people acknowledge me I receive it intellectually and block it emotionally. On the outside I appear open and loving. On the inside a world of emotional aikido masterfully redirects Love away from the heart.

The result of this martial artistry is the fruits of my actions don’t nourish me, because I don’t let them. The nectar that bathes the heart dries up. My gifts as a healer begin to lack potency, like wildflowers wilting from too much sun and drought ridden soil. In place of nectar grows a dry resentment that blames others for why I feel disconnected to myself.

A hardened quality encases my heart. It fiercely whispers, to serve I have to be independent of human nourishment. All the structures in my life that support me I have to create.

I can hear my mind saying, “I don’t want to burden people. I don’t want to seem needy or weak” I notice sometimes when people pay me a compliment a voice inside says, “oh they’re just being polite; that’s what they’re supposed to say”. These thoughts block Love.

I’m relearning how to receive Love.

I’m learning that I need to be fed by healthy relationships like flowers need water.

Declaration: I open myself to receive Love in all my relationships.

Underneath all disease withholding Love from self hides-out like a racketeer. As you fully recognize the impact of withholding love from self and own the impact it’s had on you and those you Love, healing accelerates. Love infuses the body at a cellular level. It doesn’t matter if you’re eating well, taking the right supplements, exercising, until we Let Love In, disease and illness have fertile ground to proliferate.

Playing the game called:

how little can I receive and keep going?, really sucks the life out of you.

I propose we play a new game called:

can I receive what I need to flourish, and make my life a blessing force on the planet?

Recognizing where we fall short, owning it, and creating practices that support more Love is easier said than done. This is the work we’re here to do. It takes courage. My intention is that by bringing awareness to where I withhold Love, and consciously allowing it to flow, provides you a road map to do the same. It’s hard to look inside, scary even. I’m here to support you and I would like your support in return. Until then, open hearted, full of courage, we proceed.